Sunday, August 6, 2017

Perfect Storm: Trials of MANY Kinds.












So how has your year been going so far?   If you catalogue all that is happening in these past 7 months, would events match up with some of the circumstances that Paul went thru?

            I thought about these verses one morning
               as I let myself relive the journey
                    I have been on
                            starting with 2 weeks trapped in my apartment
                                due to the snow.

Here is what he said:

We are pressed on every side by troubles, 
but we are not crushed

We are perplexed,
 but not driven to despair.  

We are hunted down,
 but never abandoned by God.

 We get knocked down,
 but we are not destroyed.  

Through suffering, 
our bodies continue to share 
in the death of Jesus 
so that the life of Jesus
 may also be seen in our bodies.

That is why we never give up. 

                    Well, let's see,
                    first of all...
                    when I match up what I have gone thru
                    with what Paul endured,
                          it does not even come close

 my list is not even
 in the same category
and yet,
I can say this
....I have felt pressed on every side,
I have definitely felt perplexed 
 I have been knocked down emotionally
humans have not hunted me down
 but at times I felt under attack 
like I had a laser beam aimed at  my chest.
as I had days of fighting
 the vicious none relenting 
attacks in my mind
So for me 
I do call this past year
 a season of suffering.

I tell you, though,  that I did hold on and did not give up, ,
 because in the midst of it all
even as I felt the grinding of the Potter's wheel 
and the purging of the fire 
I knew and I believed that the outcome would be what  Paul said
that this season of suffering was happening so  that the life Of Jesus
 might be seen more in me, 
so the Father could  move me up
another rung on the ladder of maturity, His perfect work.

furthermore, 
I have this testimony
...The Father  prepared me for what was coming ..
                  the trials of MANY kinds
through this verse from James 
which for months before,
 played in my head
 like a persistent refrain
Consider it pure joy,
my brothers and sister,
whenever you face trials of MANY kinds,
because
you know,
that the testing of your faith
produces 
perseverance

So let it grow



God did preparation work in me, strengthening me 
so that even though I faltered at times,
cried ...
 felt close to despair
 and struggled with loneliness.
I was able to get up and keep standing.
because of HIM,

Remember the song?
Because of Him 
I can face tomorrow

Yes.....I did and
Yes...
I can.

 








 Photo by Bryan Minear on Unsplash

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