Monday, December 4, 2017

Tiny House living

Oh yes, I must confess I watch Tiny House Nation.
 I have always been fascinated by
travel trailers and motor homes.
 This takes it a step beyond
and the trend is spreading. 

One of the challenges for people
 choosing to take this route is that
they not only have to let go of their larger home,
 furniture, garage storage but also things like clothes, keepsakes, books etc.
They are given containers to fill up and they can only keep what goes into them.
        Can you imagine? 
What could you live without,
what could you restrict yourself to....
are you having a panic attack right now....
just the thought of letting go of excess is almost beyond thinking.
No, no not the books,  I am hyperventilating
and my jewelry....
are you kidding?   no variety , no choices....
be still my soul.

On a recent show
one of the participants explained
why he and his wife
 were excited about embracing this life style
 and what it meant for them.
Besides lower overhead and less financial stress,
living in a tiny house freed them
both up to have more time for each other,
to enjoy their relationship more,
 to make their marriage a priority.
Interesting thought to me
and then I took it further.
 If there is a down sizing, if less time is put into things
that have little value, that will be left behind one day,
 dissolving into dust, or thrown away by relatives
who share no emotional appreciation for our treasures
If we cleared out the excess that steals moments
then would there not be more time to give to our relationship
 with the One who loves us.
Who died for us....Who waits for our fellowship,
 longs for us to draw a part
and be with Him.
Would it not be easier to gather together
with our brothers and sisters in community,
 giving more time to fellowship, to outreach ?

What do we posses that is keeping us from doing
 that one thing that we know we should do
want to do but can't find the time to do.

It is a question that begs for consideration.....
Simplified living for great gain...
If people in the world long for it, pursue it
maybe we should take a second look at our priorities
and begin downsizing for the kingdom.

               Yet true godliness with contentment
               is itself great wealth. 
1 Tim 6:6-8

                   Better a little with the fear of the Lord
 than great wealth with turmoil.  Proverbs 15:16

           "Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed;                                    
                     a man's life does not consist
                              in the abundance of his possessions" Luke 12:15
 Listen to the Lord

 What is He saying to  you about streamlining your life?

(this became a reality for me                                                                                 
when I had to let go of things in order
 to relocate to Arizona.  
It took several attempts to pare down and compress....
it was not easy 
and I had to make some painful decisions.
                Practicing what you preach is always a challenge)

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

A poem of my life... to yield


: to agree to stop fighting, hiding, resisting, etc.,
 because you know that you will not win or succeed

  : to give the control or use of (something) to someone else

: to allow something (such as a habit or desire) to influence or control

Holding on with both hands, clutching, controlling
grasping onto
my choices
my desires
my provisions
my family
my days
my hours
my nights
my grudges
my plans
my purpose
my needs
my demands

tight so tight....fear telling me if I let go
I will drown, I will fail, I will loose,
I will be unhappy, 
I will die.

and my body holds it all in, wound up 
stretched out like a rubber band, 
if let go, 
explosion, collapse
even at night ...
every muscle is still in play
as I lay down....
and resist the softness
of the mattress of the pillow.
for if I let go ....
what will I awaken to.

Wow, Mary, glad I am not there.

But I would ask
       are you sure?
On some deep level is there something you may
be holding onto desperately 
because the thought of surrendering
is too overwhelming, surrounded with
the voices whispering
"What if?"

 Oh Holy Spirit
Burn like a fire
All consuming, consume me
Here in Your presence
Lord I surrender to Your glory
For Your glory

It is a risk, isn't it?

that risk of surrendering
you hear the song, playing in your head
"I surrender all"
and you wonder, you squirm, you feel uneasy
as you ask
can I really
can I really surrender that list that trails on and on
falling back into the water and letting it
lift me up
falling into a mattress at night
feeling like a cloud is embracing me
as every muscle lets Go,
       to let God.

What stops this surrender?
Why are we holding on so tight?

One word....Trust
Trust in a love
Trust in a hand, reaching out
a voice saying
I've got you
Trust in a Goodness beyond imagining
For when I trust
I can let Go
Let Go and Let God

Why don't I trust?
Because I don't know Him
I must come to know Him
  to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge,
Ephesians Chapter 3

but to come to know 
the breadth, the length, the height and the depth.   
I must spend time with Him
in stillness, in silence, in worship

I must pray and ask Him to draw me       
                          Draw me away with you and let us run togetherSong of Solomon

to pull me into the depths of His Love  
                                     Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls;  Psalm 42:7

so that I can trust,
let go

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Waiting for the next place

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While skimming thru my blogs I came across this one which I never published.  The date surprised me it was in August 2016.....I had no idea at the time where I would be headed a year later...I would be bound for Arizona.  It is such a proof that we have no idea what a future might hold....but joyfully I know the One who does....these are the words in my heart at this very moment in time
Whom shall I fear
I know who goes before me
I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side
The one who reigns forever
He is a friend of mine
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side

                            Blog written Aug 5, 2017

I came across this prayer in my notes:

may it bless you

Message Bible Translation:
"I will show up and take care of you
as I promised
I know what I am doing
I have it all planned out
plans to take care of you, not abandon you.
Plans to give you the future you hope for.

Thank you, God, that you have plans for me.
They are good plans that will bless me
and give me great hope
 that good and better things 
are coming.
Thank you that you promised to take care of me
and bring me to my best place, 
best home on earth
as well as heaven.
I trust in your love.
I trust that you know what you are doing
and I say
Your plans be done
and my best years on earth are ahead of me.

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Father Abraham

I am on the couch looking at this stack of boxes, totes and suitcases.
This is my life....
all that I own....
a record of
 who I am 
where I have been.
I have plastic totes 
full of photographs
 that track my journey from before I was born til the dawn of Facebook:             
the new, compact photo album.
And all I can think 
about is
Father Abraham
Was it like this for him 
as he left his long time home and headed
out to unknown territory?
Did he at one point come awake
and stop feeling the excitement of the adventure
 of a new beginning, a new place  
and experience the fear of the unknown? 
How strong was his faith then?
At least he was taking family and servant/friends with him.
I do not have any takers on my journey,

 I am leaving Portland   going to Arizona.
and it has to be Grace that it s enabling me 
to leave this place I have known for 17 years.

It was only a year ago that I said to my daughter
"How can I leave here? I have a life here,
I have friends, family...
a calling, a wonderful church full of amazing people, 
anointed leadership that I trust and respect....
I can't leave...
besides, and most importantly,
I must be where God calls me 
and it is here."
but then
slam....shut doors!
 SOMEONE is moving forward and 
beckoning me to follow.

It started a year ago
 sometime around October
 when a friend left for Arizona, 
I had worked with her, we were a team
 and she had been a great emotional support....
 I felt her leaving deeply, I felt grief and
I felt envy, envy that she was going on a great new adventure
a fresh beginning where there was open space
 January came
 and the snow 
and weeks of
meditation and considering 
and then the year that I thought
was going to be exciting and
 full of Spiritual breakthroughs
and new blessings
became the Valley of Shadows .  
Along with months of
       trials and tribulations
things  began to change....
gradually, the  chords of rope 
tying me to Portland began to unravel
 and I knew
that doors were closing, Grace was moving
 God was calling,
"Leave your home, your relatives, your friends, your church
and go to the land that I will show you  and there I will bless you"+

​Did you feel what I am feeling, Father Abraham,
 as I sit here on the couch
 staring at my boxes, my life, 
all I own
 as I yield to Him inside?

I am reaching out and taking a hold of your hand,
   Father Abraham,
steady me, please,
                 as I step out in Faith 
                     and look to the stars.

September 28, 2017


Wednesday, September 27, 2017

Glory come

Matthew 11:5

 Photo by Zain Bhatti on Unsplash

The other morning I was full of joy and happy thoughts as I got on the bus,
 so it was really so easy to give the lady in the power wheel chair 
eye contact and say good morning. 
 I sat behind her and said a silent prayer for her
 and then the meditation began
Wouldn't it be wonderful if faith was present to heal her?
I really want that for her

as I continued on that path
the song began to play in my mind
         The whole world is filled with His Glory 
and I suddenly thought:
"what does that really mean, 
what would that look like?"
and this was the answer that came

The lame will walk 
the blind will see 
the deaf will hear
cleansing will come
and the good news will be preached
the good news will be preached.

Pray for your Church to be filled with His Glory
your city
your state
and watch
For you will know

 when the Glory has come!

Monday, September 25, 2017

First Love


It is easy for me
to sometimes
think that this
longing I have
for the Father, 
this longing I have to touch
the Son
to hear His Spirit's Voice
is greater,
with deeper feelings
beyond thought
beyond need
a thirst
that is greater
that cries to
be quenched
that this need
this love
this thirst
this hunger
is greater
hard as it is
I must remember
with open heart
and painful 
He loved me first
He gave love to me first
He longs to be with me
to hear me cry out
His Name
to find Him
make time for Him
in this is the love, 
not that we loved God, 
but that He did love us 
1John 4:10 

Sunday, September 17, 2017

To my "Uber driver" and prayer warrior

I am in the midst of them

Hey.....this is a shout out to a good friend of mine
 who supports me not by handing me a tissue,
 giving me a hug,  patting my hand 
and saying I feel so bad for you.

Rather, she is the one who stops everything and says
    "let's pray"
Cause you know what?
No matter what is happening there is one who promised 
"For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them."
Matthew 18:20
Whatever I am going thru, 
I know truly that He is the answer,
He is the comforter, He is the victory, He is the guider
He is the one who loves me.

Thank you, Terri,
 for being the friend who takes my hand
says His name and invites Him into the situation.

All hail King Jesus

    Find you that friend, who knows how to invite Jesus in.

Photo by Ben White on Unsplash

Thursday, September 14, 2017

Let's have a party is raining trials and tribulations

I have got some great news, ready????

Recently a friend who has traveled by bus to work for many a year, was blessed with an awesome car for an awesome price.  
          Needless to say, I went into 
                 dances of joy for him.

A few weeks back my neighbor shared with me that she was finally reconnecting with her son and that she had just enjoyed a wonderful day at the beach with him.  
    We shared a moment 
          of gratitude and 
                happy celebration.
Two examples of rejoicing with others. 
     We express these blessings
            with smiles, joy and excitement .

          But have you ever seen this???

            "Hey how is it going, Mary"

            " Well, right now I am going thru
                several trials and tribulations"

        "Wow Mary, that is so exciting, 
           I am so happy for you, 
lest go celebrate at Starbucks
 that is such great news" 

      "I know, I know 
             I am really feeling
      pure joy about this
      ...I am just dancing inside
    because I have this great opportunity 
      to grow in perseverance 
      and to go up the ladder of maturity 
         as my faith is tested.

           I wake up every morning
         filled with gratitude 
       that I have
       fallen into these trials...
                 Pure joy,  pure joy"

                I mean...
                  talk about taking
                    the Word of God literally!!

P.S.  Just so you know....
I am not quite there yet,
 I just know I want to be.....
                 I dream a dream....

Sunday, August 6, 2017

Perfect Storm: Trials of MANY Kinds.

So how has your year been going so far?   If you catalogue all that is happening in these past 7 months, would events match up with some of the circumstances that Paul went thru?

            I thought about these verses one morning
               as I let myself relive the journey
                    I have been on
                            starting with 2 weeks trapped in my apartment
                                due to the snow.

Here is what he said:

We are pressed on every side by troubles, 
but we are not crushed

We are perplexed,
 but not driven to despair.  

We are hunted down,
 but never abandoned by God.

 We get knocked down,
 but we are not destroyed.  

Through suffering, 
our bodies continue to share 
in the death of Jesus 
so that the life of Jesus
 may also be seen in our bodies.

That is why we never give up. 

                    Well, let's see,
                    first of all...
                    when I match up what I have gone thru
                    with what Paul endured,
                          it does not even come close

 my list is not even
 in the same category
and yet,
I can say this
....I have felt pressed on every side,
I have definitely felt perplexed 
 I have been knocked down emotionally
humans have not hunted me down
 but at times I felt under attack 
like I had a laser beam aimed at  my chest.
as I had days of fighting
 the vicious none relenting 
attacks in my mind
So for me 
I do call this past year
 a season of suffering.

I tell you, though,  that I did hold on and did not give up, ,
 because in the midst of it all
even as I felt the grinding of the Potter's wheel 
and the purging of the fire 
I knew and I believed that the outcome would be what  Paul said
that this season of suffering was happening so  that the life Of Jesus
 might be seen more in me, 
so the Father could  move me up
another rung on the ladder of maturity, His perfect work.

I have this testimony
...The Father  prepared me for what was coming ..
                  the trials of MANY kinds
through this verse from James 
which for months before,
 played in my head
 like a persistent refrain
Consider it pure joy,
my brothers and sister,
whenever you face trials of MANY kinds,
you know,
that the testing of your faith

So let it grow

God did preparation work in me, strengthening me 
so that even though I faltered at times,
cried ...
 felt close to despair
 and struggled with loneliness.
I was able to get up and keep standing.
because of HIM,

Remember the song?
Because of Him 
I can face tomorrow

Yes.....I did and
I can.


 Photo by Bryan Minear on Unsplash

Saturday, July 29, 2017

Here comes a shout out.....THANK YOU!

My new Assignment....lookin cute, yes?

I so appreciate the prayer support during this past season.
John is home but now begins the road to recovery.
Although all that was attacking his body
has been stopped
he has a ways to go 
to be strong and productive again.

I am so proud of his commitment to keeping his
insulin under control. 
 Our frig is filled with fruits and vegetables
and his cooking skills are creating the most wondrous dishes.
(He still won't let me cook ...really? and who fed you for 20 years  lol)
Wish we could open a diner in our living room 
so you all could enjoy his gift.

So will I be the first person to put on weight for eating healthy?
John:  "Mom, going back for seconds is not going
 to keep your weight under control"

I was never a candy striper 
but I have that job now
 making sure he has plenty of ice water available 
and keeping the kitchen cleared,
walking softly, keeping the fans going.
puffing pillows (wait, no I don't do that)

So again,  thank you for your kind words and earnest intercession...
when I come to mind 
please pray that I will have  
Wisdom with kindness and patience
and that healing with restoration 
will be upon John by the Spirit.
I know how frustrating it is for him 
to deal with the pain
when he moves around, 
it is very discouraging having to strain
to do anything.
 I know, because I have been there.
Thank you my  friends,
(aka Mariel)

Wednesday, July 5, 2017

He is so good to me....I see Him in the smallest flower

Photo by Volkan Olmez on Unsplash

And God saw every thing that He had made, 
and, behold, it was very good.

What have you looked at lately
and you thought
this is good
this is very good.

here is my list:

  • ice cold glass of fresh water
  • Long steaming hot showers
  • Sunday worship with solos and songs  
  • that stir my soul, lift my spirit
  • Pandora  music anytime, anywhere
  • three children ....six grandkids
  • Portland Sunlight on my back porch  
  • vibrant colors and healthy eyes to see them
  • soft cool breezes that create moving shadows
  • carrots, apples, cucumbers crunchy vegies  
  • grapes....grapes....and cherries   
  •  Photo by Brooke Lark on Unsplash
  • the laughter of friends
  • hugs that encourage

  • The Power of His Name
Eyes full of love and eternity

  • The word of God says that
    Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, with whom there is no change or shifting shadow.

    and so  for everything we see, hear, taste, touch or feel 
     we exclaim with thanksgiving and Praise

    Thank you so much, my Father,
    for this is good
    this is very good!

Thursday, June 29, 2017

Sharing Our Stories..."What Jesus Did for Me"

                                                        Big Wave Daddy:  "My Story"

When is the last time you shared your story?
When is the last time someone asked you
your story?
Of when you met Jesus, when  you responded to Him
when you said Yes to His love
when your life changed?

One day while I was meditating about this
I realized that there are people
in my fellowship that
I touch base with on a regular basis 
and who I have never asked them
their story.

I have a friend who co ordinates
our outreach to Portland Rescue Mission

The first time you ride with him and the group
 you are initiated by being
strongly encouraged by him
 to share your story.
It is a breath-holding experience
to discover the Jesus connection 
in someone's life.

So are there Christian friends, fellow travelers
that you are close to 
and who
you have never asked
their story?
Some time over a coffee date
or while riding in the car
asked them their story
and then share yours.

One more thing,
many Sunday goin Christians
consider themselves part of the family
because they have sort of slid in.

They never totally in a moment
of heart loving surrender
recieved out loud
Jesus as their Saviour
Jesus as their Lord.

If that is you
let's seal the deal right now

take a definite step 
and pray with me
out loud
this declaration 

these words of surrender

Dear Jesus,
Though I say I know you,
 I realize  I have lived my life for myself only.
 I am sorry, and I repent  and  I ask you to forgive me.
   I believe that you died on the cross for me, to save me.  
You  did what I could not do for myself.  
I come to You now 
and ask You to take control of my life
 I give it to You
 from this day forward.  
Help me to live every day for You 
 in a way that pleases You.
  I receive Your Holy Spirit in this moment 
to empower me
 to love You more,
 to live for You more. 
 I love You Jesus 
 I thank you for Your boldness to be Your witness
to share what Your Grace, 
Your love has done for me
  I rejoice
 that I will be spending 
all eternity with YOU.

Now go tell your story


                  If you have a heart for the
                  homeless and would like to
                 be a part of our outreach 
                  at Portland Rescue Mission
           on the second Tuesday of each month
                 Please email me and I will
                  connect you to my friend 

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