Monday, December 4, 2017

Tiny House living

Oh yes, I must confess I watch Tiny House Nation.
 I have always been fascinated by
travel trailers and motor homes.
 This takes it a step beyond
and the trend is spreading. 

One of the challenges for people
 choosing to take this route is that
they not only have to let go of their larger home,
 furniture, garage storage but also things like clothes, keepsakes, books etc.
They are given containers to fill up and they can only keep what goes into them.
        Can you imagine? 
What could you live without,
what could you restrict yourself to....
are you having a panic attack right now....
just the thought of letting go of excess is almost beyond thinking.
No, no not the books,  I am hyperventilating
and my jewelry....
are you kidding?   no variety , no choices....
be still my soul.

On a recent show
one of the participants explained
why he and his wife
 were excited about embracing this life style
 and what it meant for them.
Besides lower overhead and less financial stress,
living in a tiny house freed them
both up to have more time for each other,
to enjoy their relationship more,
 to make their marriage a priority.
Interesting thought to me
and then I took it further.
 If there is a down sizing, if less time is put into things
that have little value, that will be left behind one day,
 dissolving into dust, or thrown away by relatives
who share no emotional appreciation for our treasures
If we cleared out the excess that steals moments
then would there not be more time to give to our relationship
 with the One who loves us.
Who died for us....Who waits for our fellowship,
 longs for us to draw a part
and be with Him.
Would it not be easier to gather together
with our brothers and sisters in community,
 giving more time to fellowship, to outreach ?

What do we posses that is keeping us from doing
 that one thing that we know we should do
want to do but can't find the time to do.

It is a question that begs for consideration.....
Simplified living for great gain...
If people in the world long for it, pursue it
maybe we should take a second look at our priorities
and begin downsizing for the kingdom.

               Yet true godliness with contentment
               is itself great wealth. 
1 Tim 6:6-8

                   Better a little with the fear of the Lord
 than great wealth with turmoil.  Proverbs 15:16

           "Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed;                                    
                     a man's life does not consist
                              in the abundance of his possessions" Luke 12:15
 Listen to the Lord

 What is He saying to  you about streamlining your life?

(this became a reality for me                                                                                 
when I had to let go of things in order
 to relocate to Arizona.  
It took several attempts to pare down and compress....
it was not easy 
and I had to make some painful decisions.
                Practicing what you preach is always a challenge)

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

A poem of my life... to yield


: to agree to stop fighting, hiding, resisting, etc.,
 because you know that you will not win or succeed

  : to give the control or use of (something) to someone else

: to allow something (such as a habit or desire) to influence or control

Holding on with both hands, clutching, controlling
grasping onto
my choices
my desires
my provisions
my family
my days
my hours
my nights
my grudges
my plans
my purpose
my needs
my demands

tight so tight....fear telling me if I let go
I will drown, I will fail, I will loose,
I will be unhappy, 
I will die.

and my body holds it all in, wound up 
stretched out like a rubber band, 
if let go, 
explosion, collapse
even at night ...
every muscle is still in play
as I lay down....
and resist the softness
of the mattress of the pillow.
for if I let go ....
what will I awaken to.

Wow, Mary, glad I am not there.

But I would ask
       are you sure?
On some deep level is there something you may
be holding onto desperately 
because the thought of surrendering
is too overwhelming, surrounded with
the voices whispering
"What if?"

 Oh Holy Spirit
Burn like a fire
All consuming, consume me
Here in Your presence
Lord I surrender to Your glory
For Your glory

It is a risk, isn't it?

that risk of surrendering
you hear the song, playing in your head
"I surrender all"
and you wonder, you squirm, you feel uneasy
as you ask
can I really
can I really surrender that list that trails on and on
falling back into the water and letting it
lift me up
falling into a mattress at night
feeling like a cloud is embracing me
as every muscle lets Go,
       to let God.

What stops this surrender?
Why are we holding on so tight?

One word....Trust
Trust in a love
Trust in a hand, reaching out
a voice saying
I've got you
Trust in a Goodness beyond imagining
For when I trust
I can let Go
Let Go and Let God

Why don't I trust?
Because I don't know Him
I must come to know Him
  to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge,
Ephesians Chapter 3

but to come to know 
the breadth, the length, the height and the depth.   
I must spend time with Him
in stillness, in silence, in worship

I must pray and ask Him to draw me       
                          Draw me away with you and let us run togetherSong of Solomon

to pull me into the depths of His Love  
                                     Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls;  Psalm 42:7

so that I can trust,
let go

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Waiting for the next place

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While skimming thru my blogs I came across this one which I never published.  The date surprised me it was in August 2016.....I had no idea at the time where I would be headed a year later...I would be bound for Arizona.  It is such a proof that we have no idea what a future might hold....but joyfully I know the One who does....these are the words in my heart at this very moment in time
Whom shall I fear
I know who goes before me
I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side
The one who reigns forever
He is a friend of mine
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side

                            Blog written Aug 5, 2017

I came across this prayer in my notes:

may it bless you

Message Bible Translation:
"I will show up and take care of you
as I promised
I know what I am doing
I have it all planned out
plans to take care of you, not abandon you.
Plans to give you the future you hope for.

Thank you, God, that you have plans for me.
They are good plans that will bless me
and give me great hope
 that good and better things 
are coming.
Thank you that you promised to take care of me
and bring me to my best place, 
best home on earth
as well as heaven.
I trust in your love.
I trust that you know what you are doing
and I say
Your plans be done
and my best years on earth are ahead of me.

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Father Abraham

I am on the couch looking at this stack of boxes, totes and suitcases.
This is my life....
all that I own....
a record of
 who I am 
where I have been.
I have plastic totes 
full of photographs
 that track my journey from before I was born til the dawn of Facebook:             
the new, compact photo album.
And all I can think 
about is
Father Abraham
Was it like this for him 
as he left his long time home and headed
out to unknown territory?
Did he at one point come awake
and stop feeling the excitement of the adventure
 of a new beginning, a new place  
and experience the fear of the unknown? 
How strong was his faith then?
At least he was taking family and servant/friends with him.
I do not have any takers on my journey,

 I am leaving Portland   going to Arizona.
and it has to be Grace that it s enabling me 
to leave this place I have known for 17 years.

It was only a year ago that I said to my daughter
"How can I leave here? I have a life here,
I have friends, family...
a calling, a wonderful church full of amazing people, 
anointed leadership that I trust and respect....
I can't leave...
besides, and most importantly,
I must be where God calls me 
and it is here."
but then
slam....shut doors!
 SOMEONE is moving forward and 
beckoning me to follow.

It started a year ago
 sometime around October
 when a friend left for Arizona, 
I had worked with her, we were a team
 and she had been a great emotional support....
 I felt her leaving deeply, I felt grief and
I felt envy, envy that she was going on a great new adventure
a fresh beginning where there was open space
 January came
 and the snow 
and weeks of
meditation and considering 
and then the year that I thought
was going to be exciting and
 full of Spiritual breakthroughs
and new blessings
became the Valley of Shadows .  
Along with months of
       trials and tribulations
things  began to change....
gradually, the  chords of rope 
tying me to Portland began to unravel
 and I knew
that doors were closing, Grace was moving
 God was calling,
"Leave your home, your relatives, your friends, your church
and go to the land that I will show you  and there I will bless you"+

​Did you feel what I am feeling, Father Abraham,
 as I sit here on the couch
 staring at my boxes, my life, 
all I own
 as I yield to Him inside?

I am reaching out and taking a hold of your hand,
   Father Abraham,
steady me, please,
                 as I step out in Faith 
                     and look to the stars.

September 28, 2017


Wednesday, September 27, 2017

Glory come

Matthew 11:5

 Photo by Zain Bhatti on Unsplash

The other morning I was full of joy and happy thoughts as I got on the bus,
 so it was really so easy to give the lady in the power wheel chair 
eye contact and say good morning. 
 I sat behind her and said a silent prayer for her
 and then the meditation began
Wouldn't it be wonderful if faith was present to heal her?
I really want that for her

as I continued on that path
the song began to play in my mind
         The whole world is filled with His Glory 
and I suddenly thought:
"what does that really mean, 
what would that look like?"
and this was the answer that came

The lame will walk 
the blind will see 
the deaf will hear
cleansing will come
and the good news will be preached
the good news will be preached.

Pray for your Church to be filled with His Glory
your city
your state
and watch
For you will know

 when the Glory has come!

Monday, September 25, 2017

First Love


It is easy for me
to sometimes
think that this
longing I have
for the Father, 
this longing I have to touch
the Son
to hear His Spirit's Voice
is greater,
with deeper feelings
beyond thought
beyond need
a thirst
that is greater
that cries to
be quenched
that this need
this love
this thirst
this hunger
is greater
hard as it is
I must remember
with open heart
and painful 
He loved me first
He gave love to me first
He longs to be with me
to hear me cry out
His Name
to find Him
make time for Him
in this is the love, 
not that we loved God, 
but that He did love us 
1John 4:10 

Sunday, September 17, 2017

To my "Uber driver" and prayer warrior

I am in the midst of them

Hey.....this is a shout out to a good friend of mine
 who supports me not by handing me a tissue,
 giving me a hug,  patting my hand 
and saying I feel so bad for you.

Rather, she is the one who stops everything and says
    "let's pray"
Cause you know what?
No matter what is happening there is one who promised 
"For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them."
Matthew 18:20
Whatever I am going thru, 
I know truly that He is the answer,
He is the comforter, He is the victory, He is the guider
He is the one who loves me.

Thank you, Terri,
 for being the friend who takes my hand
says His name and invites Him into the situation.

All hail King Jesus

    Find you that friend, who knows how to invite Jesus in.

Photo by Ben White on Unsplash

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