Sunday, May 6, 2018

Encounters of the Celestial Kind


I stare out the  window at the  clouds,
 HD color at it's best.
Super white, super bright
and I am amazed as I meditate at the way
 they are drifting around out there
hanging freely....
I think of all the magic tricks of floating people
 ....flying scarfs.
No invisible strings are holding aloft
 these cotton balls of light.

I am awed as I begin
to think about those who see wonders
around us as accidents
results of exploding energy

how trivial a thought
how insulting an idea
to deny Creative Intelligence.

Light and clearness, eternal depth in a babies eyes
how wondrous is the Being that could conceive
call into existence a child with smooth flawless skin
reaching to discover this world of life and possibility
with  delightful laughter.

I wonder in awe at the creative beauty
of the One who designed it all
and then try to understand how it is
that this life giving Intelligence
 longs to be in deep fellowship with me
not just fellowship
but to be intimate with me.....
to share all that He thinks
and feels and imagines
      with me.
To share His creative energy and
imaginative design
    with me
and invites me to explore
and create love, beauty
           with Him

Maybe it is because this thought is too overwhelming
that men choose to deny the existence of God
....especially a God who longs to share,
 to reveal
     to love and be loved.

Maybe because it is so beyond the minds ability to  grasp
too intensely painful to conceive
that men find it so much easier to shove it aside and deny.

     But oh,
the loss.

Let us lament together
for the millions
who cannot conceive
or believe in the One
Who does not just love
but Who is LOVE
and Who creates such  beauty
that leaves us weeping
breathless and
Who calls us into an embrace
that is eternity.

1John 4:8
and God is love

Thursday, March 8, 2018

A short meditation


There are moments in time,
there are seasons when we make the hard choice,
when we read the signs and pack up ...
head out in a new direction....leaving behind comfort, friends, family
meaning, ...
I was settled in,
I had it figured out,
life was good and easy ...satisfying...
and that meant that the Amen did not come easy
but I knew that in spite of  loss, the unknown beckoning
that the amen must be said....
I had to go where the leading called to me.
How did this happen?
When did this fork in the road appear
and how many years has it been waiting for me ...?
If I could have seen down the road of time,
would I have discovered it there
patiently vibrating?

 it becomes clear now
 I do  know when this all started.

It was another day years ago ....kneeling at the Carson City River....
faith had come to me and courage prevailed
as I said yes to His Love and the Spirit stirred.
 Passion for the Christ was birthed
and began to grow
and flower forth thru the years.

The answer to how I ended up
under the piercing blue skies of Arizona is this:
Passion for Him led me here.

      Photo by Ian Schneider
Believer. Husband. Dad. Design @ DIASYST.

Sunday, March 4, 2018

praise the Name

one way

 I have been trying to form a new habit lately
and that is avoiding saying the word "God"
in conversation....
And this is the reason:
in this post Christian age that we live in
using the name of GOD can mean anything from
I worship trees (Avitar) to the God of many paths.
or putting it in another way...
"One name, many faces......"
           Star Trek:  the undiscovered Country    

It does make us feel  safe to say "God"
  in many circles and situations....
    "God bless you"
it makes people feel connected to us
            in agreement with us
as they think....
"Oh this person is spiritual
like me "
cozy, fuzzy feelings, safe

we are not the same and 
we had better get use to that fact
that we are a stumbling bloc
because of  The Name

Jesus says when we pray begin
              Our Father
and in turn the Father declares
to us
 "there is a name
 above every name"
A name 
before all will bow
 in heaven and on earth
              it is the name of 

Using the Name of Jesus
or Lord instead of God,
let's any listeners know that
we are not on the same page.
for we have the greater name
and  His Name is
 wonderful counselor, almighty Father
Prince of Peace.

think about it 
talk about it
what a great opening for a discussion

Monday, December 4, 2017

Tiny House living

Oh yes, I must confess I watch Tiny House Nation.
 I have always been fascinated by
travel trailers and motor homes.
 This takes it a step beyond
and the trend is spreading. 

One of the challenges for people
 choosing to take this route is that
they not only have to let go of their larger home,
 furniture, garage storage but also things like clothes, keepsakes, books etc.
They are given containers to fill up and they can only keep what goes into them.
        Can you imagine? 
What could you live without,
what could you restrict yourself to....
are you having a panic attack right now....
just the thought of letting go of excess is almost beyond thinking.
No, no not the books,  I am hyperventilating
and my jewelry....
are you kidding?   no variety , no choices....
be still my soul.

On a recent show
one of the participants explained
why he and his wife
 were excited about embracing this life style
 and what it meant for them.
Besides lower overhead and less financial stress,
living in a tiny house freed them
both up to have more time for each other,
to enjoy their relationship more,
 to make their marriage a priority.
Interesting thought to me
and then I took it further.
 If there is a down sizing, if less time is put into things
that have little value, that will be left behind one day,
 dissolving into dust, or thrown away by relatives
who share no emotional appreciation for our treasures
If we cleared out the excess that steals moments
then would there not be more time to give to our relationship
 with the One who loves us.
Who died for us....Who waits for our fellowship,
 longs for us to draw a part
and be with Him.
Would it not be easier to gather together
with our brothers and sisters in community,
 giving more time to fellowship, to outreach ?

What do we posses that is keeping us from doing
 that one thing that we know we should do
want to do but can't find the time to do.

It is a question that begs for consideration.....
Simplified living for great gain...
If people in the world long for it, pursue it
maybe we should take a second look at our priorities
and begin downsizing for the kingdom.

               Yet true godliness with contentment
               is itself great wealth. 
1 Tim 6:6-8

                   Better a little with the fear of the Lord
 than great wealth with turmoil.  Proverbs 15:16

           "Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed;                                    
                     a man's life does not consist
                              in the abundance of his possessions" Luke 12:15
 Listen to the Lord

 What is He saying to  you about streamlining your life?

(this became a reality for me                                                                                 
when I had to let go of things in order
 to relocate to Arizona.  
It took several attempts to pare down and compress....
it was not easy 
and I had to make some painful decisions.
                Practicing what you preach is always a challenge)

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

A poem of my life... to yield


: to agree to stop fighting, hiding, resisting, etc.,
 because you know that you will not win or succeed

  : to give the control or use of (something) to someone else

: to allow something (such as a habit or desire) to influence or control

Holding on with both hands, clutching, controlling
grasping onto
my choices
my desires
my provisions
my family
my days
my hours
my nights
my grudges
my plans
my purpose
my needs
my demands

tight so tight....fear telling me if I let go
I will drown, I will fail, I will loose,
I will be unhappy, 
I will die.

and my body holds it all in, wound up 
stretched out like a rubber band, 
if let go, 
explosion, collapse
even at night ...
every muscle is still in play
as I lay down....
and resist the softness
of the mattress of the pillow.
for if I let go ....
what will I awaken to.

Wow, Mary, glad I am not there.

But I would ask
       are you sure?
On some deep level is there something you may
be holding onto desperately 
because the thought of surrendering
is too overwhelming, surrounded with
the voices whispering
"What if?"

 Oh Holy Spirit
Burn like a fire
All consuming, consume me
Here in Your presence
Lord I surrender to Your glory
For Your glory

It is a risk, isn't it?

that risk of surrendering
you hear the song, playing in your head
"I surrender all"
and you wonder, you squirm, you feel uneasy
as you ask
can I really
can I really surrender that list that trails on and on
falling back into the water and letting it
lift me up
falling into a mattress at night
feeling like a cloud is embracing me
as every muscle lets Go,
       to let God.

What stops this surrender?
Why are we holding on so tight?

One word....Trust
Trust in a love
Trust in a hand, reaching out
a voice saying
I've got you
Trust in a Goodness beyond imagining
For when I trust
I can let Go
Let Go and Let God

Why don't I trust?
Because I don't know Him
I must come to know Him
  to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge,
Ephesians Chapter 3

but to come to know 
the breadth, the length, the height and the depth.   
I must spend time with Him
in stillness, in silence, in worship

I must pray and ask Him to draw me       
                          Draw me away with you and let us run togetherSong of Solomon

to pull me into the depths of His Love  
                                     Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls;  Psalm 42:7

so that I can trust,
let go

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Waiting for the next place

Image result for god healing free photos 

While skimming thru my blogs I came across this one which I never published.  The date surprised me it was in August 2016.....I had no idea at the time where I would be headed a year later...I would be bound for Arizona.  It is such a proof that we have no idea what a future might hold....but joyfully I know the One who does....these are the words in my heart at this very moment in time
Whom shall I fear
I know who goes before me
I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side
The one who reigns forever
He is a friend of mine
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side

                            Blog written Aug 5, 2017

I came across this prayer in my notes:

may it bless you

Message Bible Translation:
"I will show up and take care of you
as I promised
I know what I am doing
I have it all planned out
plans to take care of you, not abandon you.
Plans to give you the future you hope for.

Thank you, God, that you have plans for me.
They are good plans that will bless me
and give me great hope
 that good and better things 
are coming.
Thank you that you promised to take care of me
and bring me to my best place, 
best home on earth
as well as heaven.
I trust in your love.
I trust that you know what you are doing
and I say
Your plans be done
and my best years on earth are ahead of me.

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Father Abraham

I am on the couch looking at this stack of boxes, totes and suitcases.
This is my life....
all that I own....
a record of
 who I am 
where I have been.
I have plastic totes 
full of photographs
 that track my journey from before I was born til the dawn of Facebook:             
the new, compact photo album.
And all I can think 
about is
Father Abraham
Was it like this for him 
as he left his long time home and headed
out to unknown territory?
Did he at one point come awake
and stop feeling the excitement of the adventure
 of a new beginning, a new place  
and experience the fear of the unknown? 
How strong was his faith then?
At least he was taking family and servant/friends with him.
I do not have any takers on my journey,

 I am leaving Portland   going to Arizona.
and it has to be Grace that it s enabling me 
to leave this place I have known for 17 years.

It was only a year ago that I said to my daughter
"How can I leave here? I have a life here,
I have friends, family...
a calling, a wonderful church full of amazing people, 
anointed leadership that I trust and respect....
I can't leave...
besides, and most importantly,
I must be where God calls me 
and it is here."
but then
slam....shut doors!
 SOMEONE is moving forward and 
beckoning me to follow.

It started a year ago
 sometime around October
 when a friend left for Arizona, 
I had worked with her, we were a team
 and she had been a great emotional support....
 I felt her leaving deeply, I felt grief and
I felt envy, envy that she was going on a great new adventure
a fresh beginning where there was open space
 January came
 and the snow 
and weeks of
meditation and considering 
and then the year that I thought
was going to be exciting and
 full of Spiritual breakthroughs
and new blessings
became the Valley of Shadows .  
Along with months of
       trials and tribulations
things  began to change....
gradually, the  chords of rope 
tying me to Portland began to unravel
 and I knew
that doors were closing, Grace was moving
 God was calling,
"Leave your home, your relatives, your friends, your church
and go to the land that I will show you  and there I will bless you"+

​Did you feel what I am feeling, Father Abraham,
 as I sit here on the couch
 staring at my boxes, my life, 
all I own
 as I yield to Him inside?

I am reaching out and taking a hold of your hand,
   Father Abraham,
steady me, please,
                 as I step out in Faith 
                     and look to the stars.

September 28, 2017


Encounters of the Celestial Kind

  I stare out the  window at the  clouds,  HD color at it's best. Super white, super bright and I am amazed as I meditate at...