Monday, September 25, 2017

First Love





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It is easy for me
to sometimes
think that this
longing I have
for the Father, 
this longing I have to touch
the Son
to hear His Spirit's Voice
is greater,
stronger,
with deeper feelings
beyond thought
beyond need
a thirst
that is greater
that cries to
be quenched
that this need
this love
this thirst
this hunger
is greater
than 
what
He 
feels 
for 
me....
hard as it is
I must remember
with open heart
and painful 
revelation
that
He loved me first
He gave love to me first
and 
He longs to be with me
to hear me cry out
His Name
to find Him
make time for Him
 
first.
 
in this is the love, 
not that we loved God, 
but that He did love us 
(first)
1John 4:10 














Sunday, September 17, 2017

To my "Uber driver" and prayer warrior





I am in the midst of them








Hey.....this is a shout out to a good friend of mine
 who supports me not by handing me a tissue,
 giving me a hug,  patting my hand 
and saying I feel so bad for you.

Rather, she is the one who stops everything and says
    "let's pray"
Cause you know what?
No matter what is happening there is one who promised 
"For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them."
Matthew 18:20
Whatever I am going thru, 
I know truly that He is the answer,
He is the comforter, He is the victory, He is the guider
He is the one who loves me.

Thank you, Terri,
 for being the friend who takes my hand
says His name and invites Him into the situation.

All hail King Jesus

    Find you that friend, who knows how to invite Jesus in.




















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Thursday, September 14, 2017

Let's have a party ...it is raining trials and tribulations





I have got some great news, ready????

Recently a friend who has traveled by bus to work for many a year, was blessed with an awesome car for an awesome price.  
          Needless to say, I went into 
                 dances of joy for him.

A few weeks back my neighbor shared with me that she was finally reconnecting with her son and that she had just enjoyed a wonderful day at the beach with him.  
    We shared a moment 
          of gratitude and 
                happy celebration.
Two examples of rejoicing with others. 
     We express these blessings
            with smiles, joy and excitement .

          But have you ever seen this???

            "Hey how is it going, Mary"

            " Well, right now I am going thru
                several trials and tribulations"

        "Wow Mary, that is so exciting, 
           I am so happy for you, 
lest go celebrate at Starbucks
 that is such great news" 

      "I know, I know 
             I am really feeling
      pure joy about this
      ...I am just dancing inside
    because I have this great opportunity 
      to grow in perseverance 
      and to go up the ladder of maturity 
         as my faith is tested.

                      
           I wake up every morning
         filled with gratitude 
       that I have
       fallen into these trials...
           yep.....
                 Pure joy,  pure joy"

                I mean...
                  talk about taking
                    the Word of God literally!!
                 






P.S.  Just so you know....
I am not quite there yet,
 I just know I want to be.....
                 I dream a dream....















Sunday, August 6, 2017

Perfect Storm: Trials of MANY Kinds.












So how has your year been going so far?   If you catalogue all that is happening in these past 7 months, would events match up with some of the circumstances that Paul went thru?

            I thought about these verses one morning
               as I let myself relive the journey
                    I have been on
                            starting with 2 weeks trapped in my apartment
                                due to the snow.

Here is what he said:

We are pressed on every side by troubles, 
but we are not crushed

We are perplexed,
 but not driven to despair.  

We are hunted down,
 but never abandoned by God.

 We get knocked down,
 but we are not destroyed.  

Through suffering, 
our bodies continue to share 
in the death of Jesus 
so that the life of Jesus
 may also be seen in our bodies.

That is why we never give up. 

                    Well, let's see,
                    first of all...
                    when I match up what I have gone thru
                    with what Paul endured,
                          it does not even come close

 my list is not even
 in the same category
and yet,
I can say this
....I have felt pressed on every side,
I have definitely felt perplexed 
 I have been knocked down emotionally
humans have not hunted me down
 but at times I felt under attack 
like I had a laser beam aimed at  my chest.
as I had days of fighting
 the vicious none relenting 
attacks in my mind
So for me 
I do call this past year
 a season of suffering.

I tell you, though,  that I did hold on and did not give up, ,
 because in the midst of it all
even as I felt the grinding of the Potter's wheel 
and the purging of the fire 
I knew and I believed that the outcome would be what  Paul said
that this season of suffering was happening so  that the life Of Jesus
 might be seen more in me, 
so the Father could  move me up
another rung on the ladder of maturity, His perfect work.

furthermore, 
I have this testimony
...The Father  prepared me for what was coming ..
                  the trials of MANY kinds
through this verse from James 
which for months before,
 played in my head
 like a persistent refrain
Consider it pure joy,
my brothers and sister,
whenever you face trials of MANY kinds,
because
you know,
that the testing of your faith
produces 
perseverance

So let it grow



God did preparation work in me, strengthening me 
so that even though I faltered at times,
cried ...
 felt close to despair
 and struggled with loneliness.
I was able to get up and keep standing.
because of HIM,

Remember the song?
Because of Him 
I can face tomorrow

Yes.....I did and
Yes...
I can.

 








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Saturday, July 29, 2017

Here comes a shout out.....THANK YOU!

My new Assignment....lookin cute, yes?




I so appreciate the prayer support during this past season.
John is home but now begins the road to recovery.
Although all that was attacking his body
has been stopped
he has a ways to go 
to be strong and productive again.

I am so proud of his commitment to keeping his
insulin under control. 
 Our frig is filled with fruits and vegetables
and his cooking skills are creating the most wondrous dishes.
(He still won't let me cook ...really? and who fed you for 20 years  lol)
 
Wish we could open a diner in our living room 
so you all could enjoy his gift.

So will I be the first person to put on weight for eating healthy?
John:  "Mom, going back for seconds is not going
 to keep your weight under control"
"opps!"

I was never a candy striper 
but I have that job now
 making sure he has plenty of ice water available 
and keeping the kitchen cleared,
walking softly, keeping the fans going.
puffing pillows (wait, no I don't do that)



So again,  thank you for your kind words and earnest intercession...
when I come to mind 
please pray that I will have  
Wisdom with kindness and patience
and that healing with restoration 
will be upon John by the Spirit.
 
 
I know how frustrating it is for him 
to deal with the pain
when he moves around, 
it is very discouraging having to strain
to do anything.
 I know, because I have been there.
Thank you my  friends,
Mary
(aka Mariel)



Wednesday, July 5, 2017

He is so good to me....I see Him in the smallest flower



Photo by Volkan Olmez on Unsplash




And God saw every thing that He had made, 
and, behold, it was very good.

What have you looked at lately
and you thought
this is good
this is very good.

here is my list:



  • ice cold glass of fresh water
  • Long steaming hot showers
  • Sunday worship with solos and songs  
  • that stir my soul, lift my spirit
  • Pandora  music anytime, anywhere
  • three children ....six grandkids
  • Portland Sunlight on my back porch  
  • vibrant colors and healthy eyes to see them
  • soft cool breezes that create moving shadows
  • carrots, apples, cucumbers crunchy vegies  
  •  
  • grapes....grapes....and cherries   
  •  Photo by Brooke Lark on Unsplash
  •  
  • the laughter of friends
  • hugs that encourage

  • The Power of His Name
Eyes full of love and eternity

  • The word of God says that
    Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, with whom there is no change or shifting shadow.

    and so  for everything we see, hear, taste, touch or feel 
     we exclaim with thanksgiving and Praise

    Thank you so much, my Father,
    for this is good
    this is very good!

Thursday, June 29, 2017

Sharing Our Stories..."What Jesus Did for Me"

                                                        Big Wave Daddy:  "My Story"

When is the last time you shared your story?
When is the last time someone asked you
 about
your story?
Of when you met Jesus, when  you responded to Him
when you said Yes to His love
when your life changed?

One day while I was meditating about this
I realized that there are people
in my fellowship that
I touch base with on a regular basis 
and who I have never asked them
their story.

I have a friend who co ordinates
our outreach to Portland Rescue Mission

http://www.portlandrescuemission.org/get-involved/volunteer/

The first time you ride with him and the group
 you are initiated by being
strongly encouraged by him
 to share your story.
It is a breath-holding experience
to discover the Jesus connection 
in someone's life.

So are there Christian friends, fellow travelers
that you are close to 
and who
you have never asked
their story?
Some time over a coffee date
or while riding in the car
asked them their story
and then share yours.

One more thing,
many Sunday goin Christians
consider themselves part of the family
because they have sort of slid in.

They never totally in a moment
of heart loving surrender
recieved out loud
Jesus as their Saviour
Jesus as their Lord.

If that is you
let's seal the deal right now

take a definite step 
and pray with me
out loud
this declaration 

these words of surrender



Dear Jesus,
Though I say I know you,
 I realize  I have lived my life for myself only.
 I am sorry, and I repent  and  I ask you to forgive me.
   I believe that you died on the cross for me, to save me.  
You  did what I could not do for myself.  
I come to You now 
and ask You to take control of my life
 I give it to You
 from this day forward.  
Help me to live every day for You 
 in a way that pleases You.
  I receive Your Holy Spirit in this moment 
to empower me
 to love You more,
 to live for You more. 
 I love You Jesus 
 I thank you for Your boldness to be Your witness
to share what Your Grace, 
Your love has done for me
  I rejoice
 that I will be spending 
all eternity with YOU.
Amen 


Now go tell your story

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                  If you have a heart for the
                  homeless and would like to
                 be a part of our outreach 
                  at Portland Rescue Mission
           on the second Tuesday of each month
              
                 Please email me and I will
                  connect you to my friend 
 


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