Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Waiting for the next place

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While skimming thru my blogs I came across this one which I never published.  The date surprised me it was in August 2016.....I had no idea at the time where I would be headed a year later...I would be bound for Arizona.  It is such a proof that we have no idea what a future might hold....but joyfully I know the One who does....these are the words in my heart at this very moment in time
Whom shall I fear
I know who goes before me
I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side
The one who reigns forever
He is a friend of mine
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side

                            Blog written Aug 5, 2017

I came across this prayer in my notes:

may it bless you

Message Bible Translation:
"I will show up and take care of you
as I promised
I know what I am doing
I have it all planned out
plans to take care of you, not abandon you.
Plans to give you the future you hope for.

Thank you, God, that you have plans for me.
They are good plans that will bless me
and give me great hope
 that good and better things 
are coming.
Thank you that you promised to take care of me
and bring me to my best place, 
best home on earth
as well as heaven.
I trust in your love.
I trust that you know what you are doing
and I say
Your plans be done
and my best years on earth are ahead of me.

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Father Abraham

I am on the couch looking at this stack of boxes, totes and suitcases.
This is my life....
all that I own....
a record of
 who I am 
where I have been.
I have plastic totes 
full of photographs
 that track my journey from before I was born til the dawn of Facebook:             
the new, compact photo album.
And all I can think 
about is
Father Abraham
Was it like this for him 
as he left his long time home and headed
out to unknown territory?
Did he at one point come awake
and stop feeling the excitement of the adventure
 of a new beginning, a new place  
and experience the fear of the unknown? 
How strong was his faith then?
At least he was taking family and servant/friends with him.
I do not have any takers on my journey,

 I am leaving Portland   going to Arizona.
and it has to be Grace that it s enabling me 
to leave this place I have known for 17 years.

It was only a year ago that I said to my daughter
"How can I leave here? I have a life here,
I have friends, family...
a calling, a wonderful church full of amazing people, 
anointed leadership that I trust and respect....
I can't leave...
besides, and most importantly,
I must be where God calls me 
and it is here."
but then
slam....shut doors!
 SOMEONE is moving forward and 
beckoning me to follow.

It started a year ago
 sometime around October
 when a friend left for Arizona, 
I had worked with her, we were a team
 and she had been a great emotional support....
 I felt her leaving deeply, I felt grief and
I felt envy, envy that she was going on a great new adventure
a fresh beginning where there was open space
 January came
 and the snow 
and weeks of
meditation and considering 
and then the year that I thought
was going to be exciting and
 full of Spiritual breakthroughs
and new blessings
became the Valley of Shadows .  
Along with months of
       trials and tribulations
things  began to change....
gradually, the  chords of rope 
tying me to Portland began to unravel
 and I knew
that doors were closing, Grace was moving
 God was calling,
"Leave your home, your relatives, your friends, your church
and go to the land that I will show you  and there I will bless you"+

​Did you feel what I am feeling, Father Abraham,
 as I sit here on the couch
 staring at my boxes, my life, 
all I own
 as I yield to Him inside?

I am reaching out and taking a hold of your hand,
   Father Abraham,
steady me, please,
                 as I step out in Faith 
                     and look to the stars.

September 28, 2017


Wednesday, September 27, 2017

Glory come

Matthew 11:5

 Photo by Zain Bhatti on Unsplash

The other morning I was full of joy and happy thoughts as I got on the bus,
 so it was really so easy to give the lady in the power wheel chair 
eye contact and say good morning. 
 I sat behind her and said a silent prayer for her
 and then the meditation began
Wouldn't it be wonderful if faith was present to heal her?
I really want that for her

as I continued on that path
the song began to play in my mind
         The whole world is filled with His Glory 
and I suddenly thought:
"what does that really mean, 
what would that look like?"
and this was the answer that came

The lame will walk 
the blind will see 
the deaf will hear
cleansing will come
and the good news will be preached
the good news will be preached.

Pray for your Church to be filled with His Glory
your city
your state
and watch
For you will know

 when the Glory has come!

Monday, September 25, 2017

First Love


It is easy for me
to sometimes
think that this
longing I have
for the Father, 
this longing I have to touch
the Son
to hear His Spirit's Voice
is greater,
with deeper feelings
beyond thought
beyond need
a thirst
that is greater
that cries to
be quenched
that this need
this love
this thirst
this hunger
is greater
hard as it is
I must remember
with open heart
and painful 
He loved me first
He gave love to me first
He longs to be with me
to hear me cry out
His Name
to find Him
make time for Him
in this is the love, 
not that we loved God, 
but that He did love us 
1John 4:10 

Sunday, September 17, 2017

To my "Uber driver" and prayer warrior

I am in the midst of them

Hey.....this is a shout out to a good friend of mine
 who supports me not by handing me a tissue,
 giving me a hug,  patting my hand 
and saying I feel so bad for you.

Rather, she is the one who stops everything and says
    "let's pray"
Cause you know what?
No matter what is happening there is one who promised 
"For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them."
Matthew 18:20
Whatever I am going thru, 
I know truly that He is the answer,
He is the comforter, He is the victory, He is the guider
He is the one who loves me.

Thank you, Terri,
 for being the friend who takes my hand
says His name and invites Him into the situation.

All hail King Jesus

    Find you that friend, who knows how to invite Jesus in.

Photo by Ben White on Unsplash

Thursday, September 14, 2017

Let's have a party ...it is raining trials and tribulations

I have got some great news, ready????

Recently a friend who has traveled by bus to work for many a year, was blessed with an awesome car for an awesome price.  
          Needless to say, I went into 
                 dances of joy for him.

A few weeks back my neighbor shared with me that she was finally reconnecting with her son and that she had just enjoyed a wonderful day at the beach with him.  
    We shared a moment 
          of gratitude and 
                happy celebration.
Two examples of rejoicing with others. 
     We express these blessings
            with smiles, joy and excitement .

          But have you ever seen this???

            "Hey how is it going, Mary"

            " Well, right now I am going thru
                several trials and tribulations"

        "Wow Mary, that is so exciting, 
           I am so happy for you, 
lest go celebrate at Starbucks
 that is such great news" 

      "I know, I know 
             I am really feeling
      pure joy about this
      ...I am just dancing inside
    because I have this great opportunity 
      to grow in perseverance 
      and to go up the ladder of maturity 
         as my faith is tested.

           I wake up every morning
         filled with gratitude 
       that I have
       fallen into these trials...
                 Pure joy,  pure joy"

                I mean...
                  talk about taking
                    the Word of God literally!!

P.S.  Just so you know....
I am not quite there yet,
 I just know I want to be.....
                 I dream a dream....

Sunday, August 6, 2017

Perfect Storm: Trials of MANY Kinds.

So how has your year been going so far?   If you catalogue all that is happening in these past 7 months, would events match up with some of the circumstances that Paul went thru?

            I thought about these verses one morning
               as I let myself relive the journey
                    I have been on
                            starting with 2 weeks trapped in my apartment
                                due to the snow.

Here is what he said:

We are pressed on every side by troubles, 
but we are not crushed

We are perplexed,
 but not driven to despair.  

We are hunted down,
 but never abandoned by God.

 We get knocked down,
 but we are not destroyed.  

Through suffering, 
our bodies continue to share 
in the death of Jesus 
so that the life of Jesus
 may also be seen in our bodies.

That is why we never give up. 

                    Well, let's see,
                    first of all...
                    when I match up what I have gone thru
                    with what Paul endured,
                          it does not even come close

 my list is not even
 in the same category
and yet,
I can say this
....I have felt pressed on every side,
I have definitely felt perplexed 
 I have been knocked down emotionally
humans have not hunted me down
 but at times I felt under attack 
like I had a laser beam aimed at  my chest.
as I had days of fighting
 the vicious none relenting 
attacks in my mind
So for me 
I do call this past year
 a season of suffering.

I tell you, though,  that I did hold on and did not give up, ,
 because in the midst of it all
even as I felt the grinding of the Potter's wheel 
and the purging of the fire 
I knew and I believed that the outcome would be what  Paul said
that this season of suffering was happening so  that the life Of Jesus
 might be seen more in me, 
so the Father could  move me up
another rung on the ladder of maturity, His perfect work.

I have this testimony
...The Father  prepared me for what was coming ..
                  the trials of MANY kinds
through this verse from James 
which for months before,
 played in my head
 like a persistent refrain
Consider it pure joy,
my brothers and sister,
whenever you face trials of MANY kinds,
you know,
that the testing of your faith

So let it grow

God did preparation work in me, strengthening me 
so that even though I faltered at times,
cried ...
 felt close to despair
 and struggled with loneliness.
I was able to get up and keep standing.
because of HIM,

Remember the song?
Because of Him 
I can face tomorrow

Yes.....I did and
I can.


 Photo by Bryan Minear on Unsplash

Waiting for the next place

  While skimming thru my blogs I came across this one which I never published.  The date surprised me it was in August 2016.....I ...